Dysphoria while pregnant

Did anyone else experience severe dysphoria during their pregnancy? I’m non-binary and I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin from time to time. I love my baby more than anything in this entire world, and also have moments of extreme pride and joy in my bump and my changing body, however sometimes even just feeling her kick makes me feel so gross and overwhelmed that I want to scream…. I feel so guilty, because this is my rainbow baby, who I’ve tried for years to conceive. Does anyone else have this problem? How did you enjoy the beautiful moments of pregnancy while coping with dysphoria? It seems so hard at times to see the wonder in this pregnancy that I want so desperately to just enjoy…