Cheating or not cheating?
I found out yesterday at like 2 in the morning that my boyfriend had an onlyfans account where he’d pay to watch porn from local females.
Girls he went to school with and girls from sports bars….. I found out he’s been doing this since Jan 2020 according to the first transaction.
We have a 9 month old son, and he’d been doing this my entire pregnancy and up until September.
I am distraught. I feel so betrayed, he would even comment on how their vaginas looked and how horny he was and how much their prices were…. When he would tell me he didn’t have money…. But he was paying $45-$85 for each of them..,
We had a rough patch where I found out he was using a pocket pussy…. But I was always horny and wanting to have sex and he didn’t “feel” like it….
I feel embarrassed because I would tell him that I wanted to be intimate and he would say he was tired from work…..
My question is, do y’all see it as cheating because I feel like I do… it’s not regular porn, it was him looking for them specifically and jerking off to them…. Local girls….. it’s people he knows…..
I don’t know what to do I’m so heartbroken and I’m looking for advice…
EDIT:
Thank you for all the responses, I respect each and everyone of them because it gives me a chance to look at it from every angle. I’m heartbroken but idk what to say or do, this is a lot to take it in but I know my end goal is to do what’s best for me. I have to be okay for my son.

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