am i trippin for feeling this way ?

so i had my baby 2 weeks ago (c section) i live with my boyfriend and his parents and i’m so thankful that his mom helps me a lot during the night she’s the one waking up with me instead of my boyfriend bc he is sick rn which is fine but i’m stressed out.. so usually she takes me baby at 4-7 am and she tells me to rest which i appreciate so much literally but i get my baby back like at 10am-1 pm and that’s okay too i get it her husband and her like to spend time with the baby i get her back for a couple of hours and then her husband comes back from work and they take her again and honestly i’m just so sad bc i never have my baby maybe i feel jealous i don’t know but i just feel like i’m going to explode!!! how can i ever learn to take care of my baby if i never have her !?!!? all my boyfriend does is give her to his parents and i’m honestly so tired i feel mad and sad at the same time i just want to give up. i guess i’m being selfish but it’s like today she took her at 4 am i got her back at 12pm and she’s gone again.. maybe i’m trippin i just needed to rant bc my boyfriend is just gonna invalidate my feelings and i have no one.