AF came today 😪

Started cramping after sex Saturday. Yesterday mild cramps. This morning started off with a little brown spotting. Got excited thinking maybe implantation bleeding. Nope..AF. She came 3 days early. She’s wide open now, and I’m cramping and bleeding way worse than usual for day 1. It’s like she’s wanting to make me SUPER aware that I’m not pregnant. Was hoping for a good surprise this month with a BFP..my bday is tomorrow and with Christmas soon it would have been perfect timing I thought. It was not God’s timing for us to have a child though, and His timing is always perfect. I’m clinging to that truth. Sorry for the rant, just a little sad today.