Should I of let her hold my baby?

So I haven’t seen my sister in 3 years due to her being on the streets doing drugs. She came to church last night and I was so happy to see her but she looked so messed up. 🥲 she was holding my niece and was zoning out/sleeping. After the service was over, I hurried up and put my baby in the car seat.

She begged to let me hold her. She was just acting so weird, I never saw her like that. I was crying in church because I saw her zoning out. She stunk so bad like cigarette smoke and looked so messed up. She was pinching my belly and said, “you’re losing weight” and then she pinched my face and kissed me like how you would kiss your child to get them to laugh. It was awkward…

I hope she doesn’t think I don’t love her, but it’s about my child now. I know my sister and I know that she would probably be all over my newborn kissing her… and she was zoning out holding her daughter…

Forgot to mention that I live a hour from church and I told my sister I was strapping her down in the car seat because I needed to go and can’t really see good at night