All I want is his attention and love again

So me and my SO have been together since 2018 man it's been one hell of a ride between him talking to other women watching porn all the time hardly ever touching me 6 times in in almost 4 yrs has he initiated the intimacy he refuses to go down on me since I moved in in 2018 when he use to all the time well then things started to look better so i thought at the time and we decided to try for a baby and it happened we now have a sweet little girl and since I announced I was pregnant I haven't caught him talking to anyone else which is awesome and i put the porn thing in the back of my mind I'm sick of fighting that battle but my entire pregnancy we were only intimate 5 times and I started it. A few months after I had her we were doing it once week which was amazing even tho I still started it but that didn't last but maybe 2 months and now here we are nothing in 2 months and i feel there is no point of trying most day..he turns his back to mein bed or after I come into room he says he's hot n sleeps on couch most nights I get one kiss a day other wise NO PHYSICAL TOUCH at all!!!

I'm feel like I'm breaking inside I need his touch I need his attention I need him to show me he loves me n not just say it I feel like we are roommates and I'm longing so bad for physical touch and to just be showen attention and talked to that the thought of finding someone just to talk to has crossed my mind but I morally CANT DO IT.. and I feel like a shi**y person for just thinking it.