not that interested

alyssa • 21
am I crazy or what. I see 14 year olds thinking they're pregnant and I'm about to be 20 and I swear I just got into the boy thing. like I never had ANY interest what so ever in guys.all I wanted to do was hang with my friends who besides this gay guy were ALL girls. I'm not gay so don't go there lmao. but I still really am not that interested. I would MUCH rather pleasure myself and sleep alone than deal with guys. plus unless I'm drunk I can't even bring myself to kiss a guy most the time. it's like a mental block or something. I don't think it's a bad thing but all my friends have sex and have boyfriends and I'm a 20 year old virgin and I don't really care about losing it or finding a boyfriend or anything. just wondering if I'm the only weirdo out there ??