Give me some encouragement!!

I finally ended my toxic relationship. It’s the end of day 3 of no contact. Feels like I’m withdrawing from drugs. Literally.

Every part of me knows I made the right decision but I’m also finding it hard to adjust to being alone. Thankfully we didn’t live together so I have quite literally cut him out of my life in every way. I blocked him on everything.

I would be day 5 no contact if it wasn’t for him turning up to my house on day 1. So I told him I was leaving to go to my sisters for a couple of weeks. This is a lie and I’ve not gone anywhere but I just said this so that he wouldn’t come to my house again.

I left my house today for the first time since Monday and went for a walk. Which was beautiful and very cold! But every time I saw a car that looks like his approach, my heart started racing and it made me wanna go back to my house and hide.

Does anyone who’s been thru the no contact stage know how long it will take until I feel better?

7 days?

10? 14? A month? 3 months?

I’m starting a course and a gym subscription next week so I’m excited about that but at the same time I feel incredibly anxious that he’s going to come to my house and then I will be back at square one. I just want to move house already and be somewhere he will never find me.