Looks I'm gonna be a single mama..

So it seems my marriage is falling apart and it's come as a but of a shock..

Me and my husband got into an argument on new years eve..he was ghosting me (he does this regularly if I slightly 'annoy him') this time it was cause I got a little narky with him a few days before cause he went to the gym for like 4 hrs and I was cooking dinner which went cold. The gym closed at 8pm but he didn't leave till half 9 as he got chatting to a guy in the carpark or somethin. I took his word for it and was fine with him for the rest of the evenin. But he filed it away and waited for a chance to attack me over it. When I said to him I apologised in advance weeks previous as I knew my hormones were raging and my anxiety is high with the pregnancy due to a previous loss..he looked at my stomach and bitterly said 'well that was a mistake wasn't it?!'...this baby has been planned for 2 years and was his idea initially (we have 2 kids already).

I told him to leave and he did whilst roaring abuse at me, left for 2 days and text constant aggressive texts. He moved back in on the 2nd Jan but has been sleeping on the couch and avoided being in the same room as me in the house since. I work days and he works evenings so don't normally cross paths during the week but the last 2 weekends he's been leaving the house around 5pm and not coming back until around 1am.

I am so so angry at the moment but have come to terms with the fact it's over..as much as I'm kinda shell-shocked.. when I think back ow there was actually red flags throughout our marriage I didn't see as he always made me feel I was the bad guy whenever he lost his temper or ghosted me for days..I'm so done with it all. How can any man treat his pregnant wife like this??!! In her 1st trimester especially after a recent loss?! I feel so lost but I know I'll be ok cause my kids are my everything so will stay strong for them and do whatever I need to do to escape his toxic behaviour