i’m a week away from my babies due date and my boyfriend brought up just recently how he feels like i haven’t pulled my weight this whole pregnancy. and this i agree with - but only because of finances. i had to quit my job (cleaning HUGE houses) when i was about 17 weeks because i kept fainting and puking at work and couldn’t keep up with time limits and they wouldn’t work with me. then i got medicaid and was told i couldn’t get a job or i’d lose benefits so i stayed home and sold unused items while my boyfriend worked his a$$ off. i cleaned and cooked even though my body hurt so bad and i had morning sickness the whole pregnancy. i understand where he’s coming from, but i feel like he’s not grateful for what i do/have done, because it pains me to even walk to the bathroom, let alone clean up after him. i make it known how grateful i am for what he does and i don’t ask for anything even when i need it or if he offers anything we don’t need.

this conversation was also AFTER he brought up me moving back to my home state; saying he can rent a place to fly up every weekend - which makes me think that it isn’t about money at all. when i brought that up he said that i was a distraction but i’ve never been clingy or told him he couldn’t have his space or anything.

i guess what i need to hear is whether or not i have pulled my weight enough to be not completely useless. because i feel without me the apartment would be a MESS and also he spends so much money (which it’s his money) but the issue is that he’ll blame ME for our financial issues. so unless i’m using too much toilet paper or dish soap - i don’t see how it’s my fault.

(sorry if i’m everywhere - it’s more of a rant maybe? if you read this please let me know if im overreacting for feeling this way)