I am so depressed I need some cheering up

So I just found out my boyfriend of four years is cheating on me again while I’m pregnant because second time he’s been talking with these women before I found out I was pregnant and this is just really hard to deal with and he’s trying to side switch it I’ll be making all my fault and I’m just really upset and my whole pregnancy has been so stressed and my anxiety so bad I am just so upset he was talking sexual to them I didn’t wanrt to get pregnant again but I thought he had to take vitamins to get me pregnant but I was wrong and I was devastated because I knew I would be taking care of the child by myself because he’s a very uninvolved father and I just feel really stupid I was trying to make it work again and come to find out he’s been cheating on me the whole time and it’s really hard being pregnant because all I wanted to do was be around him but he never make time for me Play I’m pregnant with our baby girl we talked about her so much when I got pregnant with her son and now it’s just like I’m devastated I am so hurt I don’t even know who to talk to I just wanted him here with me and to be there during the birth now I never want to see him again I am so hurt I can’t even express how I feel all I wanted was a family and to be a wife