HIGH RISK ‼️ HELP ‼️ NEW DOC ?? ‼️

So I’m 21 , I’ll be 9 weeks tomorrow ❤️ I’m consider high risk bc I lost 2 kids . My 1st pregnancy I went to 19w 3 days ( 5mths ) then my water broke !! My 2nd I was maybe 6weeks pregnant & I miscarried . I had a cyst on my ovary as well that had to get removed ..

Fast forward 🙄

I’m now pregnant with baby 3 , I had cramps and went to the hospital 6 weeks the doctor told me “ request my hcg levels when I goto 1st appt “ so I’ll definitely know everything fine .. 1st visit I told my OB what I was told she told me “ I’m not checking your hcg levels and that the lady at the hospital doesn’t know what she’s talking about that they only check hcg levels when they think you’re ectopic “ so we went back and forth and I said you’re checking for stds why can’t you just check for the hcg levels pleading with her TO JUST CALM MY NERVES 😔 she said I’m not checking for them at all arguing with me ‼️. BEFORE I GOT SWITCH TO HIGHRISK WITH BOTH pregnancy THEY CHECK FOR HCG LEVELS EVERYTIME THEY DID LABS 🙄🙄 💯

Today I had my 2nd visit :

My 1st visit I was to emotion to record anything literally couldn’t stop crying as soon as I got signed in . So I definitely wanted to get something . ESPECIALLY AFTER HISTORY OF LOSING KIDS I TRY TO GET EVERY MEMORY !! ‼️ I was informed you can’t record anything during ultrasounds ‼️ when the ultrasound tech don’t even talk 🙄 1st visit she was like I’m done !! I told her “ but you didn’t said anything the entire time she said “ SHES NOT ALLOWED IT ISNT HER JOB TO SAY ANYTHING ‼️ So I can’t record and you don’t talk ?? 🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️ as I was mentioning to the doctors that sounds crazy she got an attitude and say well you can change doctors if that’s such a problem for you ‼️

It’s so hard because I’m hiding my pregnancy no one knows I’m pregnant 🤰 I have no one to talk to but my counselor ! IM I OVERREACTING ??