Negative After Negative

I feel like my body is failing me. I can’t seem to get pregnant. When I got pregnant the first time, I found out almost instantly that I was pregnant. This time around, it’s just negative after negative after negative. My husband keeps saying that it’ll happen soon, but how soon is soon? I just want to give up and say “screw it” to save myself the disappointment but I keep finding myself trying again every month. I keep thinking that it’s a sign, but how could this be a sign when it’s something that I want SO badly? I have no one to talk to about it since no one knows we’re trying, it’s meant to be a surprise. I guess I’m just ranting. I know many mamas will relate😫