I was just got told that I may have herpes. They guy I was with told me he had been tested before we had sex, but if I have herpes that means he either lied or got a false negative. We used condoms. I’m waiting on results, but I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’ve been betrayed either by him or by my body. If the results come back positive I don’t know what to do. I feel like that’s basically a death sentence for ever having sex again or having kids.

I’ve had enough sexual trauma in my past, to the point of where I’ve always told myself to not have sex until I’m in a long term relationship with the person. I finally trust a guy because I think we’re going to pursue a longterm relationship and have sex with him just for this to happen and then for him to leave and say that he doesn’t want to date me anymore. Like the timing could not be worse. Trust someone and break your sex rule once just to get dumped and then to find out he gave you herpes....

I don’t know what to do with that. I’ve been struggling with my mental health as is and then this bomb is dropped on me.

And of course my toxic religion has me blaming myself and hating myself.