Any recommendations help… even the smallest

Hi… I haven’t posted anywhere cause I’m

Not sure how to even write this. With my daughter I had a short cervix starting at 15 weeks. so it was a rough pregnancy always scared to lose her. But I have her healthy almos to a 4 years old. Got pregnant now with #2. My due date was 08/29 - so I had been seeing a specialist & my regular OB. My first question to them was can I take progesterone again & if they would be checking my cervix to avoid issues.

On Saturday I was 13 weeks but started having full blown contractions. Went to the ER (they checked baby and baby was there and perfect. Baby was measuring 15 weeks. So I was having such bad pain but couldn’t figure out that it was contractions. They thought it was appendix. Did MRI obviously it was fine.

Now Sunday, still at hospital. 9am I go pee and my water broke. I started bleeding so much, Baby came out (it was a girl) & I walked in the hospital with my blood count at 13. I lost 6Lt of blood. They called a code on me, my blood pressure dropped to 50/32, my husband was next to me the entire time watching people try to save my life. I had to get intubated then a D&C was performed. And when everything was done they said “ mama you were 2 cm dilated, your dr should of caught that.”

My milk is coming in now & emotionally I’m devastated. I don’t know what to do or where to even start?

I don’t even know of how traumatic this was I can’t even think of future babies?

I know I have a beautiful baby girl & home and I’m grateful I get to see her and I didn’t die but how did you move forward?