Mostly just a spill of emotions

I have to get a job as COVID and just general inflation has made it impossible to survive on one income. I'm so so so fucking scared. I planned on being a sahm until my son was old enough for preschool or kindergarten. Or just not work was the dream. I wanted to raise my children and be a sahm. I've applied for quite a few jobs, and there is a little part of me that is excited but mostly scared. I'm autistic and ADHD and I've been fired from both jobs I had. I've never been apart from my son for more than a few hours and I'm so nervous about being apart from him 8 hours a day 5 days a week. Idk sorry for rambling I just have no one to talk to.