crying

I am sitting in my car crying ,I am so sick of not getting a bfp .I am five days away from my period and I know that the stupid witch is headed this way .My Daughter is four and I have'nt used any type of birth control .It took me so long to get pregnant with my miracle 8 years is a long time .my sister in law announced she is having a little girl ,she has 2 boys 13 months a part .I want my daughter to have someone too .I GUESS I NEEDED TO VENT AND STILL CRY.