Just venting

My ex would say things to me like “be quiet you talking to much” all the time. Wether it would be me sharing my day at work or me just trying to share a story.

I felt unseen and unheard when we were together. I feel hurt now thinking about it.

It was my birthday last week. He watched all my stories and eventually texted me happy belated. Today he asked if I would go over to cuddle with him? Just thinking about the fact if I went over I would have to monitor myself and what I say and how much I say made feel hurt. It made realize how much I don’t ever want to be with anyone that makes me doubt my personality. If that’s who I am and you can’t stand it then you can’t have sex with me either .

I question if the next time he texts me I should say it just point blank. somehow a part of me hopes for peace. He won’t understand if I spoke up. But why should I continue to care when he doesn’t care that he hurt me?