Didn’t make it 😭

I went to my ob yesterday cus I was on day 10 of having spotting. I should have been a little over 11weeks. They did an ultrasound then had me waiting for over an hour to come in and tell me the baby didn’t make it. The baby stopped growing at 9 weeks 4 days. I went to the er when the bleeding first stated on the 4th I was told baby looked beautiful. It had only measured at 9weeks 1 days which was about a week off but I was told that was nothing to worry about. Heartbeat was 169. So I was feeling so good that my baby was okay. This is such a horrible feeling. This was my first time ever being pregnant and I was soo excited to become a momma. I got this news last night I cried my eyes out my whole drive home and then cried myself to sleep. I just woke up and again can’t help but to be crying again. I thought I was doing everything right, I stopped smoking cigarettes didn’t have any alcoholic drinks, I took my Prenatals, I exercised and did everything my ob advised. I feel so defeated! I was getting so attached to the little one growing inside me. My boyfriend left work and met me at the hospital he is telling me it’ll be okay. Our time will come to bring us a healthy baby. I terrified at the thought of trying again. Right now I’m terrified of going through this now. I’m so scared of passing the sac and baby tissue, I have no clue of what to expect. How long it will take and terrified to think of going back to work and it passing at work. Any words of encouragement from other women that have been in my shoes would really help. Thank you and I wish everyone a healthy and happy pregnancy. <3