What should I do

My husband abused me for years then cheated on me so we got divorced and I moved out. I saw my kids every day but he still used them to guilt me. So after being worn down I came back. But it’s still been an emotional roller coaster. The physical abuse has stopped and that is good but I still don’t feel treated right emotionally. We moved about a year ago about 8hours from my home town so I have no friends or family here. I’m wanting to leave here, go back and start over on my own but I know to do that I can’t take my kids right now. And honestly I’m not sure how long it would be for me to have a place on my own to bring them to. Should I do it and start over or just keep staying for them!?