Depressed, Broke, Lonely

I see many moms talking about the gifts they’ve received and honestly I wish I was in the position to gift something, I’ve been unemployed for almost 8 months now and it’s so hard! I moved to a different city and my BD doesn’t help me at ALL! I stay having to call his mom in order to get things for his kids…. I have no friends I’ve tried joining those “mom groups” on FB but they’re so mean to other mamas! I love my children and as cliche as it may sound they’re the reason I’m still here, I’m still trying to take it one day at a time after losing my mom a year and a half ago to Covid-19, she was only 56 😭 and I miss her so much! She’s missing so much, she only got to be a granny for 3yrs and my babies were robbed of her love ❤️ I guess I’m just trying to rant and keep myself from falling apart, the last few months have been so rough, and as much as my BDs mom tells me to call her should I or my babies need something I feel like a burden, I’d been working since I was 17 years old and to literally lose it all because of this stupid virus! I’m so angry at the world and at the people that didn’t listen! I was robbed of my mother, I’ve been reduced to asking for help from others and I’m so tired! Physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I’m so sorry about the rant, much love to all! ❤️