Is it crappy of me to choose c-section ? TW: SA mention

I was sexually abused for a period of time as a child, and while it’s been many years, it’s still trauma that i deal with day to day. I have bouts of being basically sex-repulsed, and i just generally prefer to act/think like i dont even have genitals because thinking about that region of my body gets me so disgusted and distressed and upset.

My first appointment for pregnancy, I had a pap smear followed immediately by a transvaginal ultrasound, even though i was 11 weeks and could’ve had an abdominal one. My boyfriend was there, holding my hand and smoothing my hair, but the whole thing left me teary, anxious, and sick for the rest of the afternoon. It put a massive damper on my experience of seeing my first ever view of my first child, which should’ve been a joyous occasion. I know that the further along i get in this pregnancy, the more pelvic/cervical exams I’ll have and the more I’ll have to deal with that distress. I will cope with it as it happens. But would it be shitty of me to request a c-section for this reason ? I haven’t discussed delivery with my doctor yet, but when i mentioned to my perinatal navigator that i would prefer a c-section, she seemed put off by it. This pregnancy has been very hard for me, physically and emotionally, and i know that the prenatal care i’ll continue to have will be hard for me. But i dont think i can do a vaginal birth. I just dont want the birth of my daughter, this magical day that I’ve waited years for, to be tainted by my trauma. I want the day to be about her arrival, and nothing else. But I’m scared that people are going to think less of me for choosing a cesarean, or that my doctor will push me to do a vaginal birth since a c section isn’t medically necessary. It’s been causing me so much stress lately. I knew before getting pregnant that i would have to deal with these things somehow, but i underestimated how much it would overwhelm me.