Having another abortion ? Didn’t want the first confused ?

I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant and 2 weeks later I had an abortion- I really didn’t have time to process it and my mom made my decision for me but then I think if I REALLY wanted it I would fought harder but I didn’t even FEEL pregnant like I was in disbelief

But one day I started bleeding and thought there some something wrong with me and went to the hospital to see if it was okay. So I must’ve cared rt ?

The aftermath was something I would never do again that’s why I try to be more careful and me being 20 I feel like it would be selfish to have another one because I’m an adult, time to be responsible for my actions .. this is just a rant honestly