Baby #2

Hi.

I just tested with the faintest line ever and i was shaking and couldn't believe it. My husband could not believe it at all because it was so faint. So I took another one just to be sure, it was the same faint line. You can barely see it but it is there.

So i got the craziest panic attack.

My first child took 9 months and 3 miscarriages to conceive. So i thought this time it would at least take 6 months. We have tried once. We had sex one time 3 days before my ovulation, because I got sick with flu after. So it felt like it would be impossible but still acceptable, we will try again next month.

Back to my panic attack. I think I just had the thought of it taking longer than it did? Maybe we're not ready for number 2, i just started a new job that i love, and we live in a small apartment in the city.

I want this child i do. But i feel more scared and sad than excited. Anyone else???