I need to vent. I feel like a complete failure due to being aSAHM

I feel as though I have completely failed myself and what I wanted to do.

I put my dreams on hold in order to become a SAHM.

I’ve been doing so for 5 years now and I feel like I lost myself.

To see my cousins graduating, having and getting good career choices, makes me sooo incredibly happy for them but so incredibly sad for me! 🥺

Because that’s what I wanted for myself.

My life has completely sucked after losing my parents back to back and I feel like I’ve lost my motivation, I’ve lost me along the way and I don’t know how to find myself anymore.

I don’t know what career goal I’m after… idk what I like anymore… idk what to pursue. I feel so lost and confused and it has really taken a toll on my self esteem. My soul is incredibly depressed. I feel like I’m dying inside, my burning candle is no longer shining like it used to…

How would I begin to pick myself up again?