There are some days in this pregnancy where I’m so excited and then days like today. I have been so sad and down and anxious when I think about becoming a mom. I just don’t really know if I’m ready for the responsibility.

I just told my family members and it all became more real. I don’t know why I feel this way or why I’m thinking this way. I should be over the moon, as I was worried I wouldn’t be able to have kids one day. I’m engaged, live in a nice house with my fiancé, have a decent job and I’m a full fledged adult but some days I just feel down about it. Like I’m grieving my old life or my old self.

I feel like I won’t be able to get to do all the things I want to do. I have a lot of hobbies and feel like I won’t get to persue my hobbies anymore. I feel so selfish for feeling this way. I feel like I’ll be a terrible mom or I don’t have enough love to give them. I’m excited when I think about the future but also have this dark cloud over me constantly