I felt like sharing this about me cause I don't talk to people much about it. I have been feeling numb for a while now. I'm 24, and I feel like this for 7 years now. It was worse before, I felt like shit 24/7. I got bullied in school and never felt like I belong. I was a different person inside the house, I have been fortunate to have a really good family (close family). As per the others (my late grandmother), I have no comment on her. Never liked her, she was a mean women (yeah I know she's dead but she was who she was). She would hurt my mom emotionally and I always had that feeling that I needed to protect her. This has been going on since I learned how to talk, which is pretty early.

With everything going on, I understand it was hard for my parents. I wanted to be there for everyone, especially for my mom but now when I think about it, I was too young for all of those problems. I listened to a lot of things and those things has been making me feel bad. I put so many boundaries with people and now it's hard to take them off.

I make friends easily, I'm a great communicator when it comes to everything else, except for my feelings.

This feeling of numbness, I want to take it off, I want it away for me. I want to actually feel the love I have for people and feel theirs as well. I just can't help it. It's easy with mu family, I'm very vocal with them, with the others especially romantic relationships, it's hard for me to be truly vulnerable.