Trigger Warning

Kinda just ranting here…

Also trigger warning.

My boyfriend knows my past very clearly. I’ve set ground rules for sex and what not. He helped me escape an abusive marriage. Well in the beginning he was super responsive. If I told him to stop he immediately would. However, his level of respect has gotten lackadaisical at best. Everything was still consensual. Well until two nights ago. That’s what is in question currently. We started off having sex consensually. And then he wanted to have anal. I told him no and he proceeded to try and mess around with his fingers. I told him to stop and he did. For about a minute. After about a minute he decided to shove his member in me. I told him to get off and stop. He told me to relax and kept going. I told him to get off me again and that it hurt. He said he’d go slower. I said no. He didn’t listen. He eventually stopped because I guess he got tired of me trying to fight him (He was behind me on top so not much fighting I can really do) Then afterwards when I was bitching about him not respecting me, he sent me a text saying “Sorry ok I just want to open everything up so that if some things aren't feeling ok we still have other avenues that you can enjoy also and like with being on a period or farther along in a pregnancy babe that's all I dont mean to disrespect you wifey” Like that really doesn’t seem like a valid reason or excuse to continue when I say not to? This really isn’t the first time he’s been questionable regarding consent. He just hasn’t been this blatantly disrespectful.

Should I try and leave him or should I have an in depth conversation about his behavior? Don’t judge me please. I really do love him. He just seems like he doesn’t know that it’s wrong.