Question for those with bipolar

Recently diagnosed bipolar 2. Before medication, I would rapid cycle. Now that I’m more stable (I am in the process of upping my dose for hopefully the last time) and I am finding that I almost miss the highs. I feel almost empty or like I keep waiting for that manic state to pop up and it’s not and it’s a weird feeling. I don’t miss being the lows, my depression was killing me. I don’t know if it’s I feel less or if I’m just missing being that high. Like it would feel like I was drunk without being drunk, I would feel so good, I would have so much fun. I don’t know, is this normal? I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next week I just wanted to see if anyone else felt the same after starting medication.