Gender disappointment

Has anyone recently felt or gone through or is going through this?

I’m feeling so guilty for feeling this way even though I know its normal to feel the way I do when I was so set on a particular sex for this baby and I was so so sure of myself

I don’t love this little baby any less and feel awful for feeling so upset and emotional about the baby I’ll never have (we aren’t having anymore babies after this one - unless we’re lucky enough to end up in a big enough house etc one day, so there’s no point me having my hopes high in case this doesn’t happen) but there’s so many things I know I’ll miss out on never having a little girl and I feel like I’m mourning the baby I’ll never have

Please don’t bother commenting with things like ‘oh you should be grateful that you’re able to have kids etc’, I already know that and I’m not ungrateful

Please share your experiences below ❤️