I’m a very accepting person when it comes to fetishes, sexuality in general. I’ve done some things I didn’t really want to do, but talked myself into it because he really likes it and always has throughout his adult life, before I came into the picture. At first it was okay, just here and there….but since he’s been working out of town he is asking me to do it weekly and it’s killing me. When I say no, he finds a way to talk me into it. If I cry he will say okay baby you don’t have to, but then he will keep asking, if trying to make me feel bad till I give in. I think he is a cuckold, he doesn’t want me to have sex with anyone, but he wants to watch me give other guys head. He’s in control of the whole thing, these are random men off dating sites, I do this in my car, I let him know when it starts and when it’s over usually only takes about 5 mins. He watches the videos after. But I feel so gross and I’m doing my best to get him to understand I can’t do this anymore. I love him I don’t want to break up over this 😕 why does the man that loves me want me to do this still when I have told him how much I hate it he comes home in a few months and says just be strong and take care of his needs till then. But I hate it so much I cry after every time I do it. He’s really good to me other than this aspect I feel like he can’t get away from the urge to control someone into doing this…if it’s not me I believe it will be someone else