At loss….

Okay SO and I have been trying to get pregnant and failing. I went to the Dr a few weeks ago to make sure everything was okay with me and my results came back clear. He has a sperm analysis next week. We was playing the what if game and I asked “what if your sperm is bad? Can we get a sperm donor?” He said no. He said bc the baby wouldn’t be his. Maybe not biologically but that baby would be 110% his. and I get where he’s coming from, I do. But how else would we have kids? If we adopted, the baby still wouldn’t biologically be his. Maybe when the time comes and the question comes about, he will change his mind?

But praying with everything in me that his appointment is a really good one and that one day we have a happy healthy baby, biological or not ❤️🥰🥹