Help I feel like I am losing my sanity 😭

Hi Ladies,

I'm 38 years old, mother of three, happily married. I have always been healthy however few months after I gave birth in January I had flu, which lead to hearing reduction due to eustacian tube blockage - fluid in middle ear which is still present but not as bad, I then had migraine aura which caused visual disturbances I wore an eye patch for a month, I get floaters since, and now tinnitus has started alongside some dizziness . Here in the uk specialists are not bothered been seen by them they feel tiredness and stress is the cause of migraine and floaters. I have also had counselling due to the anxiety it has caused.

I have breastfed my baby throughout, at one point I considered ending my life. I wanted to quit bf to focus on my own health however not an option. Now that little one will be one in a few weeks I really want to stop breastfeeding. She is very clingy continuously glued to me day and night breastfeeding or wanting to be carried around. I have tried to get her onto foods which she has little bit of but she is all breast. This is affecting me I don't get chance to myself to just switch off.

I don't have any family involved or friends. My husband tries but doesn't get what I'm going through he just feels I need to make an effort to wean her onto foods which I do try.

I also have to prepare to go back to work in a month. Just too much to cope with, feel like I want out at times.

I dont know what I am asking for here maybe just to vent.

Thank you 🙏🏽💜