So my ex bf and I were together 3 years and have known each other since 2012 both 28. We fell in love moved in together quickly and started trying for a family … that part was rough so many miscarriages and finally got pregnant with our son. Made it to 20 weeks and we lost our child. That tragedy ruined our lives and made things rough due to depression and our relationship fading . We fought a lot , there was no intimacy, lack of communication and everything. One day he packed up the house and moved and abandoned me. Fast forward to today, 8 months since he left me in a harsh way I haven’t heard from him nor seen him at all . He called me randomly a few weeks ago and started hanging out with me again, we’d talk, cry, laugh, smoke, drive around the city and it was nice . Expressed our feelings for one another still , kissed and eventually had sex just once . Well that lasted 2 weeks and he vanished again just stopped responding so I left him alone. Two nights ago he texted asking how I’m doing and I kind of went off . I love this man and still want to be with him , idk what’s going on with him but this vanishing and popping back up , using me for convenience because I’m the only one who “understands him” I just have no clue how to heal I tried so hard these 8 months and now I’m heartbroken and confused all over after being around him . I kinda had a little hope in us but I was wrong . How do I even begin to let all of this go again ?