Not sure what to put here but it’s mainly a rant

So my husband and I are open with what we like to look at sometimes to help us get off faster . So tonight he wanted me to get him off because our son is coming home tomorrow and he’s got the flu so my focus is going to be him of course while taking care of my other children that don’t have the flu ( any tips for the 4 month old and 1 year old not to get it would be great ) but back to the topic at hand 😅 so I’m sitting in between his legs giving him a handy and I’m okay with him watching porn or looking at images to help speed up the process since I’m not getting off so I’m just doing what I need to and I’m looking at his phone which I don’t think he knows I could see it but he was looking at sex images (which I don’t care) and after he came he quickly exited the browser history so I asked what picture helped him cum and he shows me a picture of me 😂 I know that wasn’t it. I guess I’m just irritated that he can’t just be honest and after i said you can return the favor 😅 he said you’ll have to sterilize the toy ( it’s a wand vibrator ) and I just thought what does it matter nothing got on it and it doesn’t go inside. Just thought maybe I could get a happy ending as well since the baby was still sleeping but nope I just get a shower 🤷🏽‍♀️