Ok so, I’m going to be 21 in the next few months and I’ve been having a lot of feelings I can’t even explain. For one I’m really annoyed because a family member of mine would let me drink and do other things before I was 18 now they get upset when I do it. They wouldn’t take me out for the last 5 years to celebrate my birthday let alone they were barely home to see me. Now all of a sudden they want to go to the bar with me and I feel like they’re doing it for an excuse to go drinking. In their words they’ve even told me “you can’t really celebrate your birthday until you’re 21. Because you can’t drink yet.” Keep in mind they knew that all my family are addicted and alcoholics. It was even said I was born with something In my system just like all my siblings but this one family member specifically ignored it and keeps acting like I wasn’t. I’ve even had family members I’m not close with try to tell me they want me to invite them (even though they’re out of state to ‘celebrate’ with me. They’re also the family members who don’t work and have very sketchy backgrounds to them, such as dating people with serious records in prison and killing animals.) It makes no sense and really frustrates me that they weren’t there for the last 5 years now all of a sudden they want to “come along.” I’ll make a part 2 about this later.