Sahm question

I’m a stay at home mom. Been one for the past 6 months. I love my son more than anything in this world. However I’m struggling. It’s the fact that my sons father, he leaves for work, doesn’t have a work schedule, does whatever he wants. He basically gets to leave, do whatever because sometimes his job is fun. He don’t care about spending no time with his son. Now if I leave, he will blow me up talking about how he wants to see his son, whatever. He’s trying to use my 6 month old against me. I never get to do anything because I don’t have a job, I don’t make any money to even try to do something fun. This guy is supposed to be in recovery right? Ha his “boss” drinks in his truck, has open beers, takes him to bars and shit like wow. Half the battle to recovery is to stay away from triggers. I just don’t understand which I’m probably the girl at home waiting on a fucking cheater to show up. Watch I’ll try to fuck him later and if he can’t get off we all know what happened!