Where do I start.

I am in a 9 going on 10 year relationship. I have been with this “man” since I was 16. I say man loosely because he is simply a boy.

Basically, I am at my wits end with this relationship but I cannot make it obvious or he will know something is up. I am in a narc abuse relationship so I can’t leave now. I can only do this when I am safe and secure. Right now im not in that position. I have no help.. im afraid my dad would kill this man if he found out what he’s doing or how he truly treats me.

I’ve kept this secret from everyone in My life.

We both work full time. I wfh. I cook clean take care of the baby and do everything myself because he says it’s the “womanly” thing to do. He sleeps till he has to go to work, comes home, expects dinner to be made, jumps on his game after he eats, stays on til 6am. We have to sleep in the living room because his gaming set up is in the bedroom. He wakes me up to have us move to the bedroom at 6am nearly everyday.

I am tired, stressed, overwhelmed, exhausted to all my limits.

It’s not worth arguing about or bringing it up to discuss. I am always at fault. I’m always the one that starts these arguments. Arguments leads to him getting extremely angry at me. Oh I’m also in school full time. Well at least that is online for now. I am a straight a student! I really pat myself on the back for that. It’s hard work but I want my career to be as successful as possible.

Thanks for listening. I just really needed to get that off of my chest.

Can I add.. We basically make the same amount each check but he thinks he brings home the bread 🙄🙄