I guess I’m just not good enough for him.

My fiancé asked me to marry him in 2018 and we still haven’t gotten married. 😢 We’ve lived together since may of 2015. He led me to believe so early on that he wanted marriage again, and has told me for 8 years he can’t wait to make me his wife, but that’s obviously not true. We’ve talked about it and he just keeps saying we will get married soon, or we will talk about setting a date, and then we ever do. There have been a couple of times where I was frustrated and I brought the subject up noticeably hurt and upset. Like why haven’t you married me??? What’s wrong with me?? Why propose when you don’t want to marry me?? He always shuts the conversation down by saying he wants to marry me and we will soon and then goes on to say he doesn’t want to fight. I haven’t brought it up in a couple of months, even though he said he would talk about it one weekend a few months ago, and he never initiated conversation about it. I’ve never experienced the pain he has caused me because of this..I truly thought he loved me and wanted to marry me for so long..