I don't feel like a main character in my own life...

I hope that makes sense. I feel my life has come at a stand still. Everyone talks over me, they don't recognize me, push past me. I'm invisible.

My friends, who are states away , have more vibrant lives than I do.

I'm saddled with kids and it's just a rinse repeat of take care of them and keep them alive for the next day.

I just feel like a shell. Never growing despite my best efforts to change my life so the best I feel I can do is just support my friends from the side lines. I feel that's what my life has become.

Hmm. Any advice is welcomed.

Edit- I don't have a village. My family won't watch my kids, I am burned out-- I don't have time for the things I used to love, I have no car so I'm quite literallytrapped with my kids. I'm working on getting all those things back, I feel I have lost myself and I am losing myself. I'm thinking of daycare for the kids.