I don’t mean this in a way that’s demeaning to other flat chested girls, please don’t take it like that. but I was staring at myself in the mirror today and realized just how small my boobs were. it just looked so stupid? idk, like they looked so disproportionate to the rest of my body. i’m not a big person, i’m 5’3 and 120 lbs, I wouldn’t consider myself big, but my boobs didn’t reach the sides of my chest, and they’re far apart. I’m so jealous of girls who have what at least in my eyes look like a good chest size. not even big, i’ve seen girls with small tits who really pull it off, but on me it just looks ridiculous. like tiny tennis balls glued onto my chest. i’ve never met a guy who says he finds small boobs attractive and actually means it. and I know what men consider attractive isn’t important, but sometimes I do want to feel pretty at least. like someone desires me. I know it’s probably low self esteem but god I want breast implants to look like i’m actually a post puberty woman and not a 10 year old who’s started wearing starter bras. and growing up all I heard were jokes about my small chest, and when a guy would stare at my chest and i’d complain about how uncomfortable it made me, people would just laugh it off saying I didn’t have boobs to look at in the first place. I know that certainly didn’t help. idk I guess this is just a vent post. I just can’t stand how I look so underdeveloped and not one person has shown they actually like the look of my body. they only comment on how my ass is big for a white girl (I have crippling body dysmorphia and work out legs every day for hours to make up for my lack of chest) but that doesn’t even make up for it in my mind. I feel inferior to women who look like “women”. idk

edit: thank you guys sm 😭 I prefer to keep this post anonymous just because it’s a vent but your comments all mean so much to me. it’s been so long since I heard so many positive things. thank you ❤️