Well I’ve been in a crazy situationship for almost 3 years and I feel like it’s finally over… he put his hands on me, had a baby on me (kinda), and basically been playing in my face the entire time. He’s had my location but never shared his and when I cut it off he started acting funny. He’s been hospitalized and I wasn’t able to go see him and he blames me for not being able to help him once he got out bc I’ve never had to do it before. I was trying to learn but things haven’t been right since. After I cut my location off he’s barely been talking to me which led up to him blocking me. He’s had plenty of other females the past few years and I’ve only been with him so I’m hurt. I know it’s good that we aren’t speaking anymore but my heart hurts. I can’t think about anything else and I haven’t been eating. I’m not able to vent to family or friends bc they all tell me the exact same thing on how I should have been left but I really love him. I hate feeling like this I’ve just been cuddling with my dog not leaving my house since Thursday. I haven’t had a real meal only fruit and applesauce 😭. How can I make myself feel better faster I don’t want to lose my weight I just started putting on and I don’t want this to effect my business. I’m so heartbroken I can’t even cry.

Thennn if it’s not bad enough my period came early and it’s way worse than usual with very bad cramps and heavy clotting and that’s not the norm for me. Since I’ve been off bc I haven’t had cramps or heavy periods. I just feel so down I didn’t know how else to get my feelings out. Sorry to be such a simp on New Years😩😭.