I think it’s developing into a problem because I’m fecking exhausted. I don’t mind doing it all or most. I have a husband who helps when he can (could be a lil more tbh but we’re working on it). He keeps offering to have his dad over to help w her so I can sleep or whatever but I just don’t trust him with a baby. He didn’t even know what a soft spot was and he has four kids. He’s always hurting and mobility is more limited. I just don’t think he’d be able to do much but sit and hold a bottle for a few mins. She needs more than that. I can leave her with my mom, but at the same time the last time I visited and stepped outside to grab something I come back in to her smoking in the same room as baby. I just don’t want that even though she’s technically able to care for her. Can’t leave her with my sister cuz she has too many kids and distractions and smokes all over her house. Can’t ask my only friend cuz she has a baby two weeks younger than mine. I’ve been SA multiple times by multiple people so I can’t trust her with any of the rest because I simply don’t know them well enough or trust that nothing will happen. She can’t even speak yet so she couldn’t tell me what happened. I won’t risk that with her. It could be the closest and kindest person and still happen. My husband’s brother went to prison for having explicit child content on his computer he told everyone he had “no idea about” so hun and his wife definitely wont be watching her and they have a newborn of their own now, yikes. Im just at a loss. I know it’s partially my own fault I’m so exhausted and can’t just give her to someone so I can sleep a bit. How do y’all do it??? I need sleep but I can’t risk anything happening to her…

: I think y’all are holding on to my husbands actions from this post. It’s not about him and I said we’re working on it. I’m with her the majority of the day and having issues trusting people so I feel like I can’t reach out for help