9 month Twins

In the past few days I’ve been having issues with controlling my anger towards my twin boys. They are teething and sleeping 2x 20-30 minute naps and excessive waking up at night and fighting sleep like crazy. The fighting sleep makes me rage. When I’m trying to calm them down they refuse it. When one starts the other too. And I try with one first in a calm, dark white noise room but it’s not enough. I’m mentally and physically exhausted just getting them to sleep that I don’t want them to touch me, cuddle with me.

One of them drinks only 1.5oz formula at night and wakes up thirsty again almost 2 hours later. When he does this too much, I feed the rest with the syringe until he’s full, sometimes throws up the excess and sleeps the Whole night!!!

And they are tired when they are awake so they complain.

I hate the fact that I’m not being the gentle, cuddle mom, they sure can see and sense my anger. I’m a SAHM while my husband works. I haven’t told him about this, he already helps enough when he’s home. Am I experiencing Depression? Is this a phase?