Ia this just single life?

Divorced after a 10 year relationship. I'm 28, meaning I've never lived the adult single life before.

I find myself dancing between "I wish I had a partner to cuddle and kiss"

To "Fuck that. I love my life and my dog and I dont 2ant to make time for some stupid partner that'll want more of my time than I want to give right now!"

I find myself like 80% in the 2nd phrase and only 20% in the first one. I can barely remember to make time for my friends, let alone have a whole ass partner. How does that work when you don't live with someone? Like it honestly feels more like an inconvenience than anything a lot of the time. Especially since im not so much a looker so people out there probably have to get over their initial idea of my physically to then begin to like my personality.