Urgh so me and my husband have been together for 20 years childhood sweethearts we have only had sex with each other we have had a tough couple of years and through stress and depression he developed erectile dysfunction he said a part of that was because I had asked him to try new things and he was worried he wasn't good enough it was also due to illness and medication so anyway the erectile dysfunction has slowly disappeared and we are more intermit but it's so vanilla am scared to mention anything to him Incase he thinks he's not good enough again when we first started having sex again he kept apologizing for everything I assured him he has no reason to apologize in the past he never really used to go down on me well he's upped his game in this department but I am desperate for more now and again I get the odd little cheekyness from him like he will say can you do such a thing and jokingly I say yes sir and he replies with good girl it's so frustrating because I want more from him but I am scared to scare him off we have been very distant since the erectile dysfunction and I really want to be close to him again but we just don't have that communication anymore and I don't want him to think he isn't good enough I just want to explore new things with the man I love I fantasize about him all the time 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 it's so frustrating