My 2 year old son makes me cry …

So idk what it is.. but i cry when he does everything.. hes my 1st baby so the love i have for him is outta this world along with my 11 month old baby girl… something about my son makes me cry just his presence everything…. Emotional am i ok??!! I dont do that with my daughter though but i am hapoy with her and love her just the same but my son he’s different a different love that i can’t explain.. sometimes i have to scold him but i regret it and feel bad after 💔 and go cry in the bathroom… am i ok? Ever time i look at him i cry