Sex position and oral sex

Soo 2 questions ladies:

1. Is it weird if I don’t like to be dominated in bed? Like, the doggie style and other positions are considered submissive for women right? And I’ve tried w my partner and w my vagina feels great, but on an emotional level(although he was being gentle) I felt kinda like I was defeated. So, it sounds weird but I loved it and felt weird at the same time(felt like since he had control and he did a good job, I was loosing myself in away).

2. Never given a BJ(never though I would it disgusted me), BuT w my boyfriend(who knows I don’t give and is fine w it) it naturally came to me to give him one. Think I fell in love w his penis lol, because without it I know I wouldn’t even think about this. He also told

me he can’t eat pussy - doesn’t like it generally (which I’m five w it I didn’t have the need). However, when I suggested to give him BJ or just kissing on it to show my love, he said generally he likes BJ’s and would like that feeling, but doesn’t want me to give him since apparently “ He doesn’t see me that way”. I once kissed it and he was happy but after sex he kinda said that it still bothered him because he views me more “purely” and not that way.

Soo, here’s the question, should I be worried he might go and receive it w someone else who he was usually receive if before me?