Selfish
My husband and I have been ttc for over 3 years. We had a miscarriage in November of 2013 when I was 5 weeks along. After two fertility specialists they have told me I have pcos. My husband is 32 and I am 24. I am no stranger to the fact that my husband has been around the block a time of two. He wasn't very smart in his younger days and has some prior children and we're not 100% sure how many. I have yet to meet his youngest son because of distance issues. However this weekend we are going to see him for his birthday. I am very happy for my husband to be amble to start seeing his son again but at the same time I am dying inside alittle because of a few things. I hate the fact that other women have had my husbands children and I don't seem to be able to and my husband seems to be able to have then and I'm broken. I have been trying to figure out if I am a bad person because of this. I see my sister with her daughter and I am insanely jealous. I love them both but I always find myself asking why her and not me. My neice was an opps. Why can't I have my miracle. Does these thoughts make me a bad person? I'm sorry for ranting but I just have no one else to turn too anymore. My husband is always telling me someday we will have a baby, my mother tells me someday it will happen. But sometimes I just want to scream!
I apologize if this rant doesn't make any sense either
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