Cerebral palsy

I have a question to every woman trying to have a child just like me . Do you ever stop and think the reasons why you can't conceive ? Ever stop and think that maybe it's meant to be that way . Sometimes I do . I question everything really . I think that maybe it's just not meant to happen . That maybe it's a sign from God . That maybe God is preventing me from something bigger than just not having a kid . What if you knew that your child would be born with a birth defect . Would you still be trying to conceive yes or no ?